Everyone has their own limits, their own line drawn in the sand and I think I have reached mine....
I am feeling exhausted to the point of being dizzy and feeling like I am going to puke during training, I think burning the candle at both ends is finally catching up on me! Late nights studying and early mornings with children and then days spent with clients, my own training is suffering and I cant have that so things have to be re-evaluated.
Today was my Fitness test at Perfit Ballarat and to say that I felt sick is an understatement, but as usual I made myself push through but the dizziness got me and my head was just not in it! I know I could of done better, I improved on my hover and pushups but man I felt every rep and every second of each! I have been feeling off for the past 1-2 weeks and its now getting into my head and by getting frustrated at myself I am only stressing my body out more. I am still averaging a 1kg loss a week which will be messing with my hormones and the centimeters are melting off me too, but of course I feel I could be doing better!
I took a year off law and psychology so I could focus on myself and my fitness goals and even though I am making progress at what cost?
I realised today while with a special someone that my issue is that I don't talk about the real things, the things that really count and the things that impact on me, instead I try to avoid them and push them out of my mind. Denial isn't going to fix it, maybe in the short term but not in the long run, I should know this lesson already after my health 'issues' back in the end of 2010 all bought on due to stress!
So what am I going to do?
Firstly I am going to head to the doctor's but also going to cut down my training load, it was suggested I take a week off but if I do that it could end in someone being murdered hehe so instead I am going to do as Michael and Julian suggested, cut my training load down. I will also be revisiting my nutrition with the boys on Friday and I will go back to measuring everything again and up my water intake.
I will then look at reflective writing and actually making time to do so, this is pretty much writing a diary but you do it in a manner where you ask yourself questions and try to look at certain situations or feelings from different angles to try and work your way through them instead of running away from them.
Making time for myself to relax is another thing I haven't done since deciding to start working on envy fitness, I cannot even tell you the last time I wore a dress cause I haven't had time to shave my leggy pegs (yes I know that's so gross hehe) So like scheduling my training and clients I will start scheduling me time into my diary too.
This is just a hurdle and I will over come it, I will learn from it and in future will not take on so much at once. This year is the year of balance but also don't want something I am so passionate about bring me undone!
Keep smiling and train HARD peeps :)